“I sometimes feel,” writes one, “that I ought to speak to men far above my station in life, and I worry myself very much because of my inability to do so. I am perplexed to know whether God means me to do so or not, and then I get into such a state that I am no use to anybody.”
Mere effort to speak is worth but little; indeed, we do not think that God would care for you to speak of His beloved Son under such circumstances. It is out of “the abundance of the heart” that the mouth speaks, and remember that, as to speaking of Christ, the heart has no abundance of its own. It is only when the fullness of the love of God in Christ is flowing into it that there is any power for an outflow. To use a figure, when water pressure is great, it will find vent through the smallest aperture, and when the love of Christ is enjoyed by the soul, no “pump” of legal effort will be needed to produce an overflow.
You will generally be safe, dear friend, in speaking when you can’t help it, and should you at any time feel a reluctance, don’t go on “trying” nor yet keep fretting yourself because you can’t get a word out. Consider your ways and your heart’s secret workings, and you will no doubt find what is sapping your enjoyment of the love of Christ, for be sure of this that the whole secret is here. Salvation costs us nothing, but to walk through this world in the fullness of heavenly joy involves the surrender of many an idol! Enjoy His love, and all that His love cannot enjoy ― that is, all that you could not ask Him to share with you ― will be rightly estimated and treated accordingly.
G. Cutting