“L. E.,” Ryde. We deeply sympathize with your feelings; but we do not think you should absent yourself from the Lord's 'Fable on the ground you name. The word says, “Let a man examine himself; and so let him eat.” It does not say, “Let him absent himself.” It is unjudged evil that affects the assembly. A person who habitually judges himself will never prove a hindrance to the assembly. If at any time you find your heart dull, heavy, barren, or wandering, betake yourself at once to the Lord, call on Him, and cast yourself entirely upon His grace; pour out your soul to Him, and He will assuredly give lifting up, healing, and restoration. Then you can go to His table, and remember His death in a worthy manner. May God bless you, and keep you!